work work work ..

So I arrived to Minnesota after a huge ordeal in Colorado that including lightning strikes and tornados. So after arriving at 3 am at my "new house" I had to be up and ready to work by 10 am ... fun huh??

time with the "family"

hey all.. so I have had a fun 3 days or so here in Colorado with my "adopted" family here. It was barely enough time as I would have liked to be able to spend with them. But I had a blast seeing them again after about 2 years. My adopted Aunt and Uncle and cousins picked me up from the airport Tuesday evening and I spent wednesday with them chillaxin and talking. Then on Thursday morning I helped them out at VBS and then I went to my adopted grandparent's house and have been chillin with them since then. It has been a blast talking with them and enjoying some quality time with them. I am now just chilling in there family room watching Dr. Quinn Medicine Women!! hahaha I haven't seen that show in soo long I love it! jeje.. and I am off to the airport later on tonight off to Minnesota...

Identity

During this transition time I have really learned to hold on extremely tight to the identity I have found as the daughter of the King, God. Because if I let go for even a second I will go sliding down a very slippery and destructive path that leads me to not being able to have an identity at all. The identity I had in my family has now changed and I have yet to find my new role in the family, therefore I have yet to find my identity in my family. The identity I had as the girlfriend of the godliest guy I have ever met, David, no longer exists because of the sad fact that I am only able to connect with him once a day at night through skype. Having a dating relationship by skype is not the ideal and I no longer have my boyfriend at my side so I no longer really have my identity as the girlfriend of David. My identity that I so enjoyed in the ministry right now does not exist. With all that I am I want to jump in head first into the ministry. I am just so on fire to what God is doing and what He wants to do I don’t want to wait. I feel like I am missing out on something. But God has helped me come to the realization that the need among the youth will always exist. Right now is my time to capacitate myself with all the tools and all the knowledge I can absorb so I can give my all to the youth who are going to need me. So after all these very sad realizations I have realized the biggest truth. That although everything else seems like it is slipping from my fingers one thing will never change. And that is who I am in Christ. Christ is NEVER going to leave me. And anytime I feel lonely all I have to do is go into the presence of God and feel his love and power that He has everything under control and that amidst all this craziness and hard times He has a plan that is for my best well being. Thank you, daddy for always being there and for being my one and only constant!

Where is home?

Where is my home? That is a very good question as to which I have no answer. They say home is where the heart is, but what if my heart is in two very different places? (In CR with my boyfriend and Mexico with my family and the ministry we have at our church) Can I have two homes? But at the same time even though I consider “home” to be Mexico since that is where my family is, its changed. My family has continued to coexist with each other living together and sharing memories together. Memories in which I am not a part of. Memories that they can only tell me about. My role in my family is not the same. I am used to being the oldest sibling, the big sister. So obviously I go home expecting to have that same role in my family. But of course as my life goes I don’t, my sister has now put herself in the role of big sister, which is technically true when I am not there. But what happens when I am home? It are things like this that really hurt because all these different facts all point to me being homeless. Maybe I should change the name to this blog to “The Homeless Mk Nomad”.

Why does the word BYE have good in front of it when they are anything but good?

Ok so in the course of one week I am going to have been in three countries. Talk about jet lag, huh? I have had to say goodbye to the students who I studied at the Bible School with for a year, who became my family for a year. That was the beginning of a lot of really hard goodbyes I will have to make this week. I also had to say a tearful but full of God given peace goodbye to my boyfriend, David. I arrived home, to Mexico, on Monday pretty late. When I woke up Tuesday morning I had no earthly idea where I was. Segun yo (according to me) I was still in Costa Rica and needless to say it was a big reaity shock when the reality of my new situation hit. So then I went through the feelings of missing my Port family (people from Bible School) and missing my boyfriend and wondering how we are ever going to survive 3 years apart only seeing each other every six months. Then I had to come to grips with being back with my family and friends from Mexico only to say goodbye to them in a week. I tried to not let my heart really feel, but ofcourse that is impossible. I havespent probably every night this week just crying, mourning the end of one huge chapter of my life and dreading the next chapter of my life which consists of living in the USA for a least 3 years. It is times like these when God reminds me once again that He is faithful and although I have to say goodbye to everyone I care and love, I don’t have to say goodbye to Him and I will never have to. Needless to say this is when my love for Spanish is really important because the word for goodbye is adios and there is no “good” in it whatsoever.

Why does the word BYE have good in front of it when they are anything but good?

Ok so in the course of one week I am going to have been in three countries. Talk about jet lag, huh? I have had to say goodbye to the students who I studied at the Bible School with for a year, who became my family for a year. That was the beginning of a lot of really hard goodbyes I will have to make this week. I also had to say a tearful but full of God given peace goodbye to my boyfriend, David. I arrived home, to Mexico, on Monday pretty late. When I woke up Tuesday morning I had no earthly idea where I was. Segun yo (according to me) I was still in Costa Rica and needless to say it was a big reaity shock when the reality of my new situation hit. So then I went through the feelings of missing my Port family (people from Bible School) and missing my boyfriend and wondering how we are ever going to survive 3 years apart only seeing each other every six months. Then I had to come to grips with being back with my family and friends from Mexico only to say goodbye to them in a week. I tried to not let my heart really feel, but ofcourse that is impossible. I havespent probably every night this week just crying, mourning the end of one huge chapter of my life and dreading the next chapter of my life which consists of living in the USA for a least 3 years. It is times like these when God reminds me once again that He is faithful and although I have to say goodbye to everyone I care and love, I don’t have to say goodbye to Him and I will never have to. Needless to say this is when my love for Spanish is really important because the word for goodbye is adios and there is no “good” in it whatsoever.

New Chapter: The definition of an Mk Nomad

Ok, so if anyone has wondered why I chose the name of my blog to be MK Nomad, well after this message I am sure you will have no doubt as to my reasoning. Today is Tuesday and I am actually writing this in the airplane on my way from Guadalajara, Mexico to Minnesota with a 3 day stop in Colorado. Didn’t I just arrive to Mexico from Costa Rica a week ago? Yes. My crazy life as an mk nomad is going into full swing. After being in Costa Rica for a little over 4 months I was finally able to go home and see my family who I hadn’t seen the entire time I was studying in CR, except for my dad. I was also able to go to my home church and see my church family after so long, but unfortunately the happy feelings of my saying hellos and everything was cut short with the hard not good feelings of having to say goodbye again for a whole other year. So I left today from Mexico. I go to Colorado for a very quick little visit to kind of regroup after my very emotional week in Mexico. Then I am off to Minnesota for a couple weeks of hard core working, because College is NOT cheap! Then I am off once again to California for a quick visit with my aunt and uncle who I haven’t seen in about 5 years and then to a two week conference for Mks who are moving back to the states for college. Then after my time in California finishes I go once again to Minnesota for a few more weeks of working. Then I am off to Chicago to meet up with my mom. (another huge blessing from God! My mom is going to be able to fly up to the states and help me move into college!) Then after a week of hard core shopping for last minute things for college comes the road trip to go to college in Virginia… AAHHH CRAZY STUFF!! Now do you know my reasoning for calling this blog Mk nomad?

Update

Now it’s time for a quick update on the last month of my time in Costa Rica. Have I mentioned how big and good God is? Well He is very big and extremely good! For the first few months of my time this semester in Costa Rica I had been constructing a very good friendship with David, a youth pastor at a church here in Costa Rica. After much prayer and talking with a lot of people who are important to us, we decided to enter into a dating relationship. Crazy huh!?! Throughout my relationship with David God has been teaching me a great many things. It was a very hard decision to enter into a dating relationship because of the fact that in the end of May I was going to leave Costa Rica and begin a new chapter of my life in the USA. We didn’t know if it was in the best interest of our emotional status to begin a relationship and then a short time later have that relationship change into a long distance relationship. We have decided that right now this is the direction God is leading us to. I would ask for your prayer in regards to David and I. It is not easy to have a dating relationship by skype, we have already felt the strain and it has only been a week that we have been separated. We are praying that we follow God’s lead in walking step by step in His will and not run like we as humans have the tendency in doing.

Thank You!

Wow, so I know it has been like forever since I have last updated my blog. Its been a crazy ride. First off I want to thank those who were praying about our mission trip. God is good and He once again showed us just how big. Two weeks before the deadline of when we had to have the whole amount of money in we still hadn’t raised a fourth of what was needed. But in those two weeks we raised $3,000 dollars more than what we had originally asked for. That money went for beds for Don Alvaro and his family, the family we built a house for. We also used some of that money to go for scholarships for other Latin students who are interested in assisting Portantorchas, the Bible School I attended for the past year. So once again thank you for your prayers.